the sourcerer: Bergamot and heartwood.

Friday, November 28, 2014

Bergamot and heartwood.

This is the work that allows me to take time off in the Winter. It is my livelihood and I should be thankful. And of course I am... but sometimes I become resentful. All of a sudden I am not only responsible for myself, but for a team of six. The emotions, the particular problems, the language barriers. It's more depleting than any physical work, of which there is a fair share as well.

In the garden the fennel has grown taller than me. In the evenings I water and I long to spend more time there. The turmeric is shooting up by a foot a week. I brush against the bergamot bush and think of Aida. People are wonderful, and terrible.

Mostly a bit of both.

4 comments:

Leslie said...: Lovely post. My garden is the place I go when I need quiet and no people. Which is often.; November 28, 2014 at 5:16 PM
Marie said...: xx Hope to see you...inbetween.; November 30, 2014 at 1:45 PM
tanjawilmot said...: Aida would have been so happy to be amongst your turmeric and fennel. Perhaps she already is. x; December 1, 2014 at 7:07 PM
the sourcerer said...: A lovely thing to say - thank you Miss T. xx; December 3, 2014 at 6:42 AM

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You could tend a garden at night, only at night, pouring dark water onto leaves, and into the earth, like pouring midnight onto midnight. You could hold your soil-stained hands up to the moon. The stars would gleam on the bottom of the shovel. It would smell the same as a daytime garden - it would smell green, violet, red, white. But come back, in daylight. Come back, to see the colours without closing your eyes.
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