the sourcerer: We're on vacation.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

We're on vacation.

I've been having a severe case of internet existentialism. A friend said to me on Sunday night that he just doesn't have the energy for something like a blog. I said to him that I can't not. That it's something I cannot suppress and I love it.

Then I sat down yesterday and I looked at the mountains. And I realized that it hasn't been all that much fun lately. (And I wondered what becomes of a thing like this if you just leave without turning off the lights. Does it become a cavernous place full of cobwebs, unanswered questions, doors that lead nowhere?)

Forgive me if this appears self-indulgent or ungrateful - there have been so many incredible rewards.

I'm hoping it's just a case of the blahs.

So I'm booking myself off for a while.

4 comments:

Marie said...: Hm. If it ain't fun, it ain't fun.

Have a good holiday, Lily. Sterkte daar buite in die vreemde. If you leave I will miss you, but I know that whatever you do, it will be beautiful.

And may be you'll come back.; August 30, 2011 at 7:57 PM
Marie said...: Also, follow your heart. It knows where to go. Other people's hearts don't always get that.; August 31, 2011 at 3:37 AM
D said...: Internet is the refined sugar of life. Too much is definitely not good for you.

Enjoy the real world.; August 31, 2011 at 9:53 AM
the sourcerer said...: thanks for understanding.; August 31, 2011 at 1:39 PM

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